When I Please

Now that you’re gone
I don’t smile the same
All the feelings I’ve got
Got me stuck in a cage
I’m weak at the knees
Can barely breathe
There’s darkness inside me
Beyond belief

Cause I’m trapped, no longer free
Can’t kiss you when I please
Can’t hold your hand for warmth
Or rest my hand on your knee
And lay my head on your shoulder
And imagine us older
I’m trapped, no longer free
Can’t kiss you when I please
When I please

And now your name makes me nervous
When I hear it said
When it pops up in memories
Pops up in my head
And sure there are those days
Where it’s like nothing’s changed
How could it when you and me
We’re still the same

Except I’m trapped, no longer free
Can’t kiss you when I please
Can’t hold your hand for warmth
Or rest my hand on your knee
And lay my head on your shoulder
And imagine us older
I’m trapped, no longer free
Can’t kiss you when I please
When I please

I’m sorry I couldn’t protect your heart
That’s all I ever wanted to do
Hope you hear this one day
Sincerely from me to you

Haven’t seen you in days
Have you changed
Now that I’m gone
Do you still smile the same